The Baal Teshuva Diaries

 I did not think I was going to get political on my blog.  Nor did I ever, in a million years, imagine this was the stance I would be taking.  I grew up a die-hard liberal.  My views still put me far to the left of many Orthodox Jews.  But -  This is the stance I am taking.  Jews in America have supported and supported racial justice, economic equality, women’s rights, and what do we have to show for it?  BLM- antisemitic MeToo- won’t stand up and condemn Hamas violence against Israeli women  Greta Thunberg-?- supports Hamas No one will stand for the Jews.  Liberals have bought the pro Hamas narrative that Jews are colonizers and they, the Arabs (the true colonizers) are the native population. A convenient narrative for Hamas.  Even if you don’t share my religious convictions, you can look at physical, archeological evidence showing a Jewish presence in Israel far before Arab colonization. You can read Roman or Greek documents.  Either you believe in science or you don’t.But you can’t

I’ve always had a soft spot for Leah, our matriarch.  But today I feel like I could be Leah. I want to cry and cry until my eyes give out too. With the war in Israel I feel like my struggles are stupid.  But  I’m so, so tired.  I’m hurt.  Physically, I’m not doing well.  Mentally I’m not  feeling great either.  I know I should draw strength from Leah. Maybe tomorrow I will. .

I put it in all caps so you know I mean business. I really doubt, based on my sporadic posting history, that anyone reads this blog any longer.  And if you do, chances are high that you are also a Jewish woman and in that case I am preaching to the (Jewish) choir.  I'm angry.  I'm sad. I'm scared. But mostly, angry.  I'm a redhead with a redhead temper.  I'm angry at all the people I'm friends with on facebook from college who are APALLED at the loss of Palestinian lives but couldn't give a d-mn about dead Jewish children. I'm angry that they decided to shout "from the river to the sea" like genocide is just fine as long as it's Jews were killing Not only do these lily white goyim not have any skin in the game, so to speak, but I'm quite sure Hamas would be almost as happy to see them dead.  Idiots. Yes, I'm angry. I'm angry that Jews are "white" when it suits your political agenda for us to be so like the Holocaust wa

 First of all, you may be wondering why I’m not posting about the war in Israel.  This is the internet and I don’t have energy for death threats right now.  That said, I’m a deeply religious Jew. I think you can figure out where I stand.  The “hopeless” in this title refers to my crafting ability. But come to think of it, I am feeling pretty down about the state of the world. Maybe Moschiach will come tomorrow.  This week is parasha Chayei Sara. Since a well features heavily in the parasha, I decided to have my preschoolers make a well. I am truly awful at crafts and I don’t enjoy them. Which is weird for a preschool teacher, I know. So I found the least involved craft I possibly could.  I found it on Pinterest, and adapted it based on what materials I had available - it calls for popsicle sticks and a water bottle. I had a cup and toothpicks. Another reason I am hopeless at crafts is that I don't like to spend money or time preparing for them.  For instance- I could've bought